Sadness

The other days I was in a chat room, a fellow private me ( I rarely private people - reasons in next blog), as usual asking something abt me and if I am single. While I told him my relationship ended a year ago, and he said sorry and ask if I feel sad. I told him not really, and he replied because I dumped him.

Ya, I did want to end the relationship with him sometimes before really happened. Because I found our so called relationship seem getting colder and apart. Every time I tried to cheer him up or teased him, and he said I am childish, and returned in an unhappy face. And I thought OK, may be my joke is no good. But every time I heard him conversation with his friend in the phone, I could hear him laughed even I was in the dining room, and every time told told his female friend "All men are smelly...blah blah blah" and I found this statement odd, he didn't think himself a man too??

I loved him because I knew he is slow learner. Every time I said something, it took him a while to understood it.

Lazy to type all these gibberish past. Anyway, every relationship sure end in a unhappy situation. We are living not in a fairy tale world. And I don't usually feel sad for long. Even my mum died when I was 9. I just felt let her left and since there was nothing much I could do to stop it...